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Darkness or Light
From deep in the darkest wintery parts of your heart
Your spirit lurks, hiding even from yourself
The odd childhood memories like layers of dark torn veils
Billow in the whistling wind around your dark hair and eyes
Shielding you from the emotional river buried in snow that creeps through
Cracking and biting at your cool unemotional front
That lurking that scares some deeper part of you
That frightens you like a shadow at the corner of your eye
Or, like a long reaching dark arm of a naked elm in the dark winter moonlight
Hollow and cold
That reaches out like an old crippled witch's finger to sting you and get you
Pointing at you. Mocking you. Pushing you. Millimeters from your spine.
Wanting you to run
To the edge of that chasm
That dark hole
That you want to pretend is not surrounding you every moment of your life
It isn't easy to hide. Even in the big empty slums of the city you call home it lurks. You hear it even after you lock yourself inside.
Bolt the door.
Listen for it.
You only notice it when you quiet your thoughts.
It's chilling breath waiting for you. Lingering just behind you.
You feel it creeping into your shower even when the water is warm.
Goosebumps up your arms and you shiver knowing its there.
It haunts you. Could it happen now, you wonder.
Sickening and disgusting, you can't even imagine it.
That deadly part of yourself. Creeping up on you.
Ticking down like a stopwatch gone backwards.
You track your eyes in the mirror. Hair soaked and dripping. Face gaunt. Pathetic.
Never able to hide from what will come for you. Stare back at it.
What will capture you.
What you ignore and try desperately to pretend wont be.
Darkness. Beyond the layers of skin and flesh.
Calling you back. Haunting you back.
Yes, it's just there on the other side of your door. It's alive and breathing.
Its eye pressed to the peephole looking in at you.
It sees you. It knows you.
In your room, you put your fingers to the keyboard and brain-wash yourself.
Tell yourself you'll avoid it. Invent your lies.
But, it remembers you... because it is you....
And, one day you will close your eyes and join it.
Then you will know the truth.
Of who you truly are.
Darkness or Light.
And, everything you do now in avoidance of it, brings it quicker.
Shh, listen. Can you hear it?
Heavenly summer moments when,
Everything around me glows like an unbelievable heavy
Aura of pink and I'm lost in love walking slowly, lost in life, feeling nothing but happiness....
Remembering every barefoot step through garden grasses and all of the scents along the way,
Thinking of nothing more than paradise here, absorbing life with every breath, unforgettable...
So full of every second... and the floral delights of Jasmine filling my senses...lingering,...
Heaven on earth.... here in the heavy humid air that feels so luscious against my skin...
Inhaling the magic of rain that was left over from the morning showers, nourishing my soul.....
Nothing else penetrating my being save for the rustle of the leaves, I walk oblivious to the rest
Entertaining my souls dreams of heaven here on earth.
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